Where is the Peaceful Garden?

Everything annoys me. Everyone irritates me. No patience exists at all, towards anything, or towards anyone, for now.

For this moment I knew I have had enough of rubbish happening in my life.

Inconsistencies
Randomness
Unawareness
Ignorance
Fantasy dreamers
Petty minds
Nonsense.

But why would they bother me in the first place?

For this moment I knew I have exceeded boundaries. I have eaten up my own personal space. I cannot breathe.

And this is the consequence of I testing my own limits.

I am no dump site of people's feelings and problems. I realized that I cannot handle it, as the moment I take in, it will instantly belongs to both of us. I have to bear it with you.

Sometimes I have to take care of myself too. 

I cannot take in anymore.

I don't want to care anymore.

I don't love anymore.

I no longer have the energy to do so. 

It's empty. Hope that the fuel is still enough for me to make it through.

So what happens when there is no channeling out but only in, is, it will overload and then, spill. burst.

Don't mistaken me, it is all my weaknesses.

Perhaps the devil in me seized the opportunity to wreak havoc inside me, taking the shape of my closest friends.

Misjudgment
Over intepretation
Extremely unreasonable expectations
... 


As if I heard it whispering, the worse have yet to come, endlessly tormenting me to the max. I am not certain. I need to be alone.