BUT IT SEEMS THAT HE IMPROVED A LOT, THERE IS NO NEED FOR IT THEN. HOPE SO.
I WANTED TO GIVE OUT ALL MY STRENGTH TO HELP YOU, MAKING SURE TO GIVE YOU A PUSH TOWARDS YOUR GOAL. BUT I KNOW, YOU WON'T LET ME. I UNDERSTAND.
MADNESS!!!!! TOTALLY CRAZY. HAD HE JUST GOT BEATEN JUST LIKE THAT?
I ADMIT THAT I GOT UPSET BY HIS ONE-WORD INSIGNIFICANT REPLY. MY ENTHUSIASM ON THAT NIGHT HAD TOTALLY VANISHED.
WHEN HE TELLS ME THAT EVERYTHING'S FINE WHEN IT IS OBVIOUSLY NOT..
SO TEDDY BEARS PROTECT THE CHILD FROM THE MONSTERS UNDER THE BED... BUT THE INSECURE FRIEND OFTEN FAILS TO PROVIDE SECURITY TO THE BABY OF THE GROUP.
IF I CONTINUE TO DWELL IN THE EMOTIONS AND BITTERNESS, I WILL EVEN RUIN THE THINGS WHICH ARE ALREADY GOOD, PUTTING PREVIOUS EFFORTS IN VAIN.
TONIGHT I WANNA CRY, THE MOST FREQUENTLY PLAYED SONG.
"BECAUSE I NO LONGER SEE THE DOW WEI XUAN I USED TO KNOW, AND THAT HIS SHADOW PERSONALITY SEEMS TO HAVE CHANGED A LOT, THE WAY HE THINKS, THE WAY HE EXPRESSES"
"THIS MAKES ME WONDER WHETHER YOU HAVE A COLLEGE LIFE AND COLLEGE FRIEND, OR ARE YOU STILL STUCK IN THE PAST WHERE YOU ARE IN CHS BACK THEN?"
THE BIGGEST PROBLEM IS, PEOPLE ARE IMPROVING DAY BY DAY, WHILE I AM SEEMINGLY DETERIORATING AT EVERY ASPECTS OF MY LIFE.
THESE ARE THE EMOTIONAL LONG NIGHTS... READING SENTIMENTAL STUFF, LISTENING TO SAD SONGS, STRUGGLING TO FOCUS, REMINDING MYSELF NOT TO WASTE TIME WHEN EXAM IS AROUND THE CORNER... AT THE SAME TIME WANTING TO PUT ON HOPE FOR THE COUNTRY
TODAY IS HER TURN TO BE EMO. TALKED TO HER TO EASE HER FEELINGS, OH AND SHE IS INTO ASTROLOGY HAH DURING HER SUMMER BREAK!
SHE CAME, WHEN I NEEDED THE MOST. SHE WAS A REAL GOOD COMPANY. NO PRESSURE. GOOD OLD FRIEND.
SO THE COUPLE IS BACK TOGETHER AGAIN. JUST LIKE HOW FAIRY TALE USUALLY ENDS, HAPPILY EVER AFTER. I HAD DONE MY PART, GUESS I WILL NOT BE NEEDED ANYMORE.
I HOPE THAT NO RUMOURS HAS SPREADED, AND NO ONE GOSSIPS ABOUT IT. AT THE SAME TIME, I AM SO PROUD OF MY FRIEND, DUE TO AN UNSPOKEN REASON.
SO I BOUGHT A CAKE FOR THE BIRTHDAY. TIRAMISU. CONSEQUENCES? I HAVE NO IDEA. NOTHING HAS CHANGED.
I TALKED TO HIM AGAIN. AGAIN, OR OF COURSE, IT NEVER TURNED OUT WELL. FED UP, I LEFT THE CONVERSATION.
AND BECAUSE OF MY SO-CALLED OUTSTANDING ACHIEVEMENTS ATTRACTED SO MUCH ATTENTION, THE OTHER ONE HATED ME FOR SO LONG, BUT I GUESS WE DID NOT REALIZE THAT WE STILL TREATED EACH OTHER AS FRIEND, BUT THE POINT IS, WE DID NOT KNOW.
I DID NOT KNOW, AND DID NOT EXPECT TO THE VERY LEAST, THAT HE IS MY LIMIT, AND BEYOND MY THRESHOLD.
WHAT IT TAKES TO BE AN OUTSIDER.. WHEN EVERYONE HAS THEIR ORIGINAL GROUP OF FRIENDS.
WHY AM I NOT WILLING TO ACCEPT CERTAIN THINGS, WHEN IT IS THE HARD TRUTH, EVEN IF I KNOW BETTER TO BE AT PEACE WITH IT, I REFUSE TO!!!!!! URGH!
